Getting a tattoo soon...already picked it out. Hehehehe.

"Lets play a lovegame, play a lovegame..."

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375422_235199626548448_1000017523640.jpg, a photo by xCherylSmithx on Flickr.

A person doesn't make or break your life, you do.

4pm isn't coming fast enough. Studying atm.

Jan won't come soon enough.

Ready to talk to him. Be 10:30. Be 10:30 NOW!!!!!!

When I look at you I am already home. <3

It is silly how relaxed and warm you make me feel. It is so so easy to rest and get some sleep around you.

God! I just want this over and done with. Why do you have to make EVERYTHING so difficult?!?!?!

You are more than just a dream come true. You are my freedom. I need you like I need air.

1000 ways to die...is just too cool. :)

Is it weird that I want to say thank you to him now?

Had a awesome weekend. And had a really good time with his fam. They are super sweet.

Omg I am more sore today than yesturday. Do not want. *Goes back to sleep.*

Can I sit on your lap and we talk about the first thing that pops up?????? Tehe. Tired, sore, and still have things to get done tonight...but happy. :)

My true feelings about this.

"I JUST WANT TO BE ALONE TONIGHT, I JUST WANT TO TAKE A LITTLE BREATHER, CAUSE LATELY ALL WE DO IS FIGHT, AND EVERYTIME IT CUTS ME DEEPER, CAUSE SOMETHINGS CHANGED, YOU BEEN ACTING SO STRANGE, AND ITS TAKING IS TOLL ON ME, IT IS SAFE TO SAY THAT I'M READY TO LET YOU LEAVE, .... WITHOUT YOU I'M SEEING MYSELF SO DIFFERENTLY, I DIDN'T WANT TO BELIEVE IT THEN, BUT IT ALL WORKED OUT IN THE END, WHEN I WATCHED YOU WALK AWAY, WELL I NEVER THOUGHT I'D SAY I'M FINE WITHOUT YOU, ... WE HAVE DONE A LOT OF GROWING UP, WE WERE NEVER MENT TO BE TOGETHER, ... I'M READY TO LET YOU LEAVE."

"Take a bite of my bad girl meat, show me your teeth." tehehehehehe. :)

<3<3<3"Baby lets go dancing in the dark, cause when he looks, she falls apart. Baby loves to dance, loves to dance in the dark." <3<3<3

"I was born of ice with fire running in my veins, it was only time before I started to melt" Gone to bed. Had a lonnnng trying day.

"Hurry baby and turn the knob, you don't know you got me until I'm gone, shut my eyes and count to 10,...stupid boy have you ever really looked at me" -TPR

"If he loves you, and you're dead and gone, kissy kissy I'm a killer kitty, I'll play along,...he's not ever going to let you go..."

"Crimson and clover, sugar and salt, bitter sweet, and it's all your fault,....we are mentally fucked and it's all your fault" -void & null(The Pretty Reckless)

"...I miss everything, ...like a bottle of painnnnnnn...and I don't know what I done to meeeeee" - Miss Nothing (The Pretty Reckless)

"And as I watched you disappear into the ground, one mistake was that I never let you down, so I waste my time, and I burn my mind, I miss nothing"-Miss Nothing

"I be not your slave, miss guided, I minded, I'm missing the train, and I don't know where I been,.... and I don't know what I've done to me" - Miss Nothing.

"corrupt" by depeche mode .... All I'm saying. :) tehe.

Man you got my sex drive up up UP!!!! :P

Color me happpppyyyy. :) :) :) :) :) :)

Emotionally...I've been with you sooo long. Sorry for not seeing the light sooner.

Listening to 'monster' by lady gaga and thinking about someone. :)

You and me could write a bad romance. I want your everything...as long as it's free. I want your love. Love love love. :)

I can now say and it be totally true. I'm ok with this. I'm happy. It is confusing at times. But I'm ok. :)

Starting to fall hard and fast with no control of my own. I forgot what it was like to be treated with love and respect. Rawrrrr!!! :)

There is only so much of hurt you can take from someone, then when you find someone that really loves you, everything seems brighter. :)

You make me smile more than you know. And I really need that right now. :)

If I knew the road would of ended with you hurting me. I never would of gotten into the car.

You really love to point blame. But what will you be doing in oh say 10-20 years???

"These boots are made for walking and that is what they will do. One of these days these boots are going to walk all over you."

Maybe if you had more faith...I would have been stronger. I deserve more than this. I know now. You are nothing but in heat...and yet you call it love.

Don't say you care and then act totally against it. Learn to walk the way you talk.

Ever feel like you are in a losing battle?

How can I give up on someone I care about?

So many mixed feeling about all of this. I'm a glass case of emotions.

I have always been good as my word. In the end I think that is what is going to kill me. I don't make vows lightly. I don't love easy, but when I do I love hard

You. I still love you. I want to scream so bad and cry my eyes out and can't feel anymore sometimes when I think of what you have done. But I still am yours.

Passed, nothing but love remaining..I still see you. Old and gray beside me. If I was to die tomorrow, I would still want every minute up until that being with

Anything for you. I want us to work on this so much. Cause when I still look to the future to when I'm old and gray, looks have faded, family and friends

How can I focus on things I need and have to do. When all I think about is you? You have hurt me so much. And yet I still want you, love you, willing to do

True friends, you will know, because they never will and never have given up on you.

Never take those that truly care about you for granted. You won't have them forever. Limited time only.

When it comes down to it. You have to except that you will die in the end, and yes we all die alone. There is no defeating death in the long run.

Finding your way back is rough. The longer your gone, the harder it is to fight back. People can be there for you all they want. But you work through it alone.

All that running makes you cold and dead. It strips away everything that you was, until eventually you lose your ownself to the deepest waters of the dark.

It is best to stand and fight all those things you hate about your life, you, and your past. Instead of running for years and years.

If I was to be honest with myself. I would say all of this I'm doing is half for me and half for you. But I'm really liking myself. Correction: Loving myself.

I finally get all your depression and self hate. If I was you, I would hate myself too.

You were right. You are selfish. Very! Good luck with that. :)

Getting a hard on doesn't count for personal growth.

You don't know how good you had it.

You wouldn't know what respect or loyal was if it bit you in your ass. You call my family trash. Just what do you think you are?????

You are not hurting me anymore. Quit frankly my dear, I don't give a shit.

Didn't let the grass grow did you.

You date a skank, all you are going to get is heartache. I know from many experiences.

Once a liar will always be a liar.

Extremely giggly and no idea why. Hehehehehe. Covered in many happys! :)

I had a really good day today blog. I forgot what it could be like to be loved for my company...oh and let us not forget my booty I bring or my boobs. :) haha.

Covered in many happys. :)

I'm standing across from you 
And dreaming of the things I do 
I don't speak, you don't know me at all 

For fear of what you might do 
I say nothing but stare at you 
And I'm dreaming 
I'm trippin' over you 

Truth be told 
My problems solved 
You mean the world to be but you'll never know 
You could be cruel to me 
While we're risking the way that I see you 
That I see you [3x]
That I see 

Conversations 
Not me at all 
I'm hesitating 
Only to fall 
And I'm waiting, I'm hating everyone 

Could it be you fell for me? 
And any possible similarity 
If its all, how would I know? 
You never knew me at all but I see you 
But I see you [4x]

I'm standing across from you (But I see you) 
I've dreamt alone, now the dreams won't do (But I see you) 
I'm standing across from you (But I see you) 
I've dreamt alone, now the dreams won't do (But I see you) 

Truth be told, my problem solved 
You mean the world to me 
But you'll never know 
You could be cruel to me 
While we're risking the way that I see you 
But I see you [4x]

I'm standing across from you (But I see you) 
I've dreamt alone, now the dreams won't do (But I see you) 
[4x]

But I see you 
But I see you 
But I see you

In the process of evolving...I AM NOT STANDING STILL! Let death come in the end, because I will know 'I' have lived.

Play your childish games, run your teenager plays, just don't cry when you lose the race. I've been thinking and planning. I'm walking now instead of crawling.

You will never truly know this, because unlike you I never give up on people I care about.

I'm smarter than you think I am. I'm stronger and I know I am. I'm more a beautiful soul, because I live it so.

It all can be a bit too much right now. But I will gladly throw myself in the fire pit. Sometimes you have to learn to fight back...and rather quickly.

You will never know I guess. Or it's just you don't care.......

Ever have that feeling were you are completely worthless to some people? Yeah! Totally understand.

And the knife cuts deeper.

Wish

I wish you would make up your mind. Do you love me or do you not? Am I worth holding onto or not? Can I be good enough for you? While I'm here, I'm working as fast as I can. Working my fingers to death. Throwing my brain into overdrive. Trying to improve in a lot of ways. Working on things that was destroying me and my marriage...on MY part. But did you ever think that this dance takes two? The only things I EVER commanded from you...for me to be your wife was love, affection, honesty, loyalty, and respect. That's all I EVER wanted from you. All the promises you made me, all the vows you swore, all the sweet whispers you told me...were they all a lie? Are you even wanting me back? All the complaining you did about how some of your former girlfriends did you, do you not see you were and are doing them to me? Have you even tried to improve 'your' mistakes? And you told me when I finally poured my heart out to you about what it really was holding me back, you stated that those things were in the past. Well you said all this flirting you were doing with these girls, was because girls never really paid attention to you when you were fat. Well darling, THAT too is in the PAST. So that could go both ways. I never lied to you. Even now all you ask me, I'm honest with you. I've always been willing to except every little thing about you...your strength, your weakness, your perfections, & your faults. But I will not except you flirting with other girls. That is very disrespectful. I NEVER DID THAT TO YOU! And I even told you I didn't mind 'play' flirting with friends of mine. Cause why? Because I know them. And I know they wouldn't do that. And plus it wouldn't be BEHIND MY BACK.....AND WITH GIRLS I DON'T EVEN FUCKING KNOW! You complain a lot of what some of your exs did and how your baby momma did you. But you were and are doing the same. You are looking for the perfect woman, when you fail to see there is a woman ready to crash, burn, & die for you and that would stand beside you through anything. I know a lot of women, believe me...that's more rare than you could ever imagine. Most girls, even some you think are nice...I know for a fact has cheated and lied to their husband/boyfriend. And 96% of women...aren't very excepting of anything that goes against what they want. I wanted fairness, I wanted total and complete honesty, I wanted friendship, I wanted true love, I wanted the until death, I wanted you. I was there for you...the ups, the downs, and there for you when you were in total despair. Where are you now when I need you?

I wish I was the moon tonight.

Whole mouth, jaw, and throat is swollen and sore. Thank God for really strong pain killers. Those pain killers are heaven sent!

Just down all around. Goodnight world. Maybe I won't dream of him tonight. But a big part wants me to. Tomorrow can't come soon enough.

Maybe I should stop trying. You would rather spend your time with someone that only loves you half as much. What did I do to deserve this?!?! God? Lol. Whatever

Seems like no matter what I do. No matter how hard I fight. I will never be good enough for you. To you I'm worthless. And that is what kills me.

"Oh God I miss you. I really miss you."

Got a weird and 'UNWANTED' call from an ex today. Now my day totally blows chunks! Doucebag! You must really think I'm a complete idiot! Well...I'M NOT!

Got to talk to him a great deal today. I'm suddenly really happy go lucky.

I'm going to prove everyone that downed me in my life wrong. Family, friends, lovers, and enemies...all wrong! I can do this and I know it.

Scared of that coming too. I'm just scared right now...about everything. And everything of my oldself is telling me to run. And I'm not going to do it!

So scared of tomorrow and Wednesday coming. Went by the adult education center. Got things set up to test me as fast as they can. Which is Dec 12-14 or 13th.

I miss being his wife. I miss being his. :*(

Missing someone........

Feeling down. Going to bed.

Please God, help me save my last thread of sanity. I'm running lost, hoping that I can find my way back. I feel like my emotions are slowing dying within me. Will I soon be stone? I can't think straight. My heart still aches to see and hold him. But...I know that when I do...It will be worse to let him go. Should I move on? Is that even possible? To let go of your soulmate so quickly as he entered your life. He has lied to me, He has kept things from me, He has turned his back on me, He has kicked me out, He has said he wanted a divorce, He has packed my things, He's thrown me away, ....... He has betrayed me. My own heart of my heart. So why can't I hate him? I know it would make it easier. Therefor, I should automatically do it. Right? So why can't I? I don't feel hatred for him, I feel only hurt and pain. Never ending and unforgiving pain. I would have never done this to him.... Why....How can he do this to me? It's suffocating deafening. To have to keep telling yourself to smile and breathe. To go out and live when all you want is the opposite. I can feel the waves of the heaviness from all of it hitting me.

My body is tired, my soul is weak, my heart still sore, like my feet, my brain still busy keeping me alive, when my love is aching and wanting to die.

He doesn't want me. So what am I really holding onto? If he thinks I'm weak, he is dead wrong. I gave it my all, when he only gave me a little. If he thinks I'm going to pine and pine with all my time, then he knows me precious little. What I wouldn't give to work it all out, But APPARENTLY he never will know what true love is all about. I miss him still, I love him still, I care for him still. I still look at photographs that I shouldn't be, reading letters and cards that I shouldn't read. I know in the end, he will deny me again. But I have not clue, as to what to do. Except be honest with myself. I'm still in love, and there is no one else.

Night.

I miss your warm hugs. I miss your soft kisses. I miss the way you smile. I miss the way you smell like home. I miss your eyes gazing over me. I miss your endearing touch. I miss listening to your problems big and small. I miss the way you walk. I miss everything about you. I miss you. I hate this so much. I'm hurting and it feels like I'm dying still. I'm still trying. But I'm also still crying. I can make it through the day and evening on the side of ok. But at night, it's the roughest. Trying to make myself forget you and me, when all I want to do is hold you again. To laugh with you again. Laying my head on your chest and listening to your heart beating. It's the best sound to me. I'm trying not to call you or write you. You wouldn't answer me anyway. Why make that knife cut deeper? Goodnight sweetheart. I hope you are safe and sleeping well. I'm still praying you will get a kidney. Love you. Night. 

P.S.: Sorry I'm having a hard time with this.

HaTeFiLleD ... Living is a bonus.

HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE THIS! NO ONE WILL EVER UNDERSTAND ME!!!! HATE MY LIFE! HATE MY PAST! HATE THE THINGS I HAVE DONE! HATE THE PEOPLE I DONE THEM TO! HATE THAT I WAS BORN! HATE THIS WORLD! HATE THAT I HAVE TO FEEL! I HATE TO FEEL! I'M JUST HATEFUL! 

Call me a bitch if you wish. 

Call me a liar, I'm not going to be the buyer.

 Call me little Miss lonely, hell call me little Miss controlie.

Feed me your hate, these demons won't disintegrate.

I know mine by name, too bad you can't say the same.

Feed me your blame, I'll let you play your game. 

Came to me all the same, we both are circling the drain.

People are nothing but shit packed in skin suits.

This includes me and you too, it's true.

The devil was in my dreams last night, he said he would tuck all of humanity in tight.

The blood on my hands become redder with the dripping of the sands.

Assemblage 23 - Disappoint

Do you believe in the nobility of suicide?
No

Just one more time
For the sake of sanity
Tell me why
Explain the gravity
That drove you to this
That brought you to this place
That pushed you down
Into the soil's embrace

Give me the chance
I was denied
To sit and talk with you
For one last time

Did I disappoint you?
Did I let you down?
Did I stand on the shore
And watch you as you drowned?
Can you forgive me?
I never knew
The pain you carried
Deep inside of you.

I can't forget
Having to see
The words that knocked the wind
Right out of me
It's not enough
I've come undone
Trying to find sense
Where there is none

Just give me peace
You owe me that
To help ward off the fears
I must combat

Did I disappoint you?
Did I let you down?
Did I stand on the shore
And watch you as you drowned?
Can you forgive me?
I never knew
The pain you carried
Deep inside of you.

And so I ask
For one more chance
To understand
This senseless circumstance
Help me to see
This through your eyes
The reasons I've been trying
To surmise

Though you are gone
I am still your son
And while your pain is over
Mine has just begun

Did I disappoint you?
Did I let you down?
Did I stand on the shore
And watch you as you drowned?
Can you forgive me?
I never knew
The pain you carried
Deep inside of you.

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Random - :(

You throw it all away. All those years. I meant nothing to you, I know that now. I was never good enough. You wanted the up most sympathy from me but yet..when I was going through a lot WHERE THE FUCK WERE YOU?!?!?!? I needed my husband, and you weren't there. You don't know the times I cried myself to sleep, hurting and wishing that you would hold me and tell me it was alright. Why do I feel like you damned my soul to misery? How can I be angry at you for doing this to me and still want to be there for you when you are going through hard times? How can I wish that you could feel the amount of pain I have right now, but yet hope our splitting up isn't hurting you too bad??? I hope it isn't hurting you as bad as it's hurting me. It feels like I'm dying while standing. Slowly. And I'm not able to die completely. I wish I could. But I can't. Maybe I'm just too fucked up for you. Well buddy, you are just as bad as me. My only fault was loving you too much. I see that now. I pushed my friends and family away, I pulled you closer. Because I had a ridiculous thought that you understood pain and suffering. I'm sorry I'm not perfect for you. I tried. God knows I tried. I prayed and prayed until my heart was sore. I was slowly sinking into my grave, and all you did was give me a push more into it. I know you will never read this. I know if you did, you would never care anyways. You say you love me, then you crucify me. I miss you deeply. I can't sleep at night. I can't eat. The only times when I can breathe is when I am busy. Dear God I hope I get a job soon. I applied in a lot of different places. I need to keep busy. I need to be out and around people, helps me to not have time to think. You say to friends that I keep you from seeing your friends and doing some things you want to do. Well you did the same to me. How can you even think you didn't? Marriage is about give and take....compromising always. Maybe I gave you too many compliments, maybe I let you cry on my shoulder too much, and maybe I wanted the strong person I know you to be to come out. I know he is in there. I seen sparks of him from time to time. But you never let him fully come out to play. I hate I see the good in you, and you only see the worst in me. I haven't felt like this since Dad passed away. I just feel broken. The scary part is I don't think it will get any better. People keep telling me it will. But I don't think so. I accepted that you were on dialysis, I accepted that you would never hold a job, I accepted you didn't want to help me clean, I accepted that one day your back would put you in a wheelchair, I accepted you didn't have a lot of money, I accepted that you didn't have a lot of things for your house when I met you, I accepted that you didn't have a car when I met you, I accepted a lot. But you couldn't accept I was trying to work my way through all of this?  You're breaking me into pieces. And it feels like you ripped a part of me out that I can't get back. I'm stuck in the woods again. And it's at night. I'm blind as a bat right now. I still love you, care for you, and I still am hoping for the best for you. I just wish I would quit crying over you and stop hurting over you.  Sucks! I want this to be over if that is what you want. If you are happy with that girl, I want you to be happy with her. I'm sooo very sorry I ruined your life. If you haven't noticed after all these years....I'm just a big fuck up. And I'm sorry baby. I'm trying my best to get over you hun. And I'm going to keep trying. I love you sweety. Thank God you agreed to still be friends. I don't know what I would do if you quit talking to me. Goodnight dear one. ~ Cheryl Smith "Parting Is Such Sweet Sorrow"

The letter that will never be sent.

To the one that loved me.

I wish you loved me still.

I can't help how I feel.

My heart is pouring out with no one to hear.

These searing, painful, devastating thoughts tearing at me making me ill.

You say you love me still.

I hope that is real.

Why is the thought in my head

Saying that I'm better off dead?

If you're going to bleed me dead

I wish you would go right fucking ahead.

A part thinks the material things are the only reason why you're still here

Maybe without them, leaving me would be your will.

I can't help that I feel like my love is not enough

I only ask for loyalty and trust, your response "tough".

I would go through hell and back a thousand times over, it's true

But I would only do it for you.

Quit playing games with me

And start being with me.

I'M SO SICK OF THIS WAIT AND SEE!

Wonder if someone would miss me as I left. Or tasted the tears that I wept. I think not.

I'm back to boxing. And dancing... Oh and learning.. So sorry for worrying you... I've just been really busy. Sorry folks. Please stop asking if I'm ok. I am.

"Ring ring hookah." - Laf

Geez people. Love yourself, or no one else can love you!

Cigs are freaking the most demonic thing ever. Trying to quit here....for like the 12th time. Geez!!

When I start getting a lot of gray hair...best know I'm going to rock it like a boss! :)

I'm almost in total love with this woman. Lol. :)

"Of all the people in the world, I wouldn't be anyone other than me. You have got to have love for yourself before you can have love for someone else. Be strong, be brave, be yourself!"

My thoughts on racism. Funny, but true post. {Facebook/Myspace click on the link to see the post. Warning bad language and a lot of gifs ahead.} I hope you like.

The way I feel about racism...

What I should tell myself...

But what do I say...

What I think about you thinking you are better than others...

I mean...

So please don't make me...

I find you to be this interesting...

And don't get mad at me cause you know I'm...

In closing remember...

Man, Some people on blogger are complete idiotic hateful racists!!! Unfollowing you now! *Clicks button*

"Both good and evil exist in everybody and I DO mean everybody. It just depends which side you are willing to nurture the most that makes you who you are."

AND I AM REALLY FREAKING SURE I'M NOT GETTING ANOTHER PET IN MY LIFE. I CAN'T TAKE THIS!!!

Oh I also have been dealing with the loss of Pippy. She passed away a couple of nights ago. Matt buried her near Gizmo underneath the tree outback. I miss her so very much. When I can talk about it more I'll tell you more about what happened but right now. No. I've said this before, and I guess I'm just going to say it again. When bad things happen to me it comes threefold.

So yeah sorry...haven't been around. Been sick....but then again what the heck is freaking new there. Anyways, love you guys and goils. Sorry for the long overdue. Please stop freaking the hellic out! Also, my cell was shortly cut off for reasons I do not go into. But it's back now. Not taking texts or calls tonight but hit me up tomorrow if you want. Peace, love, and whatever. ;) ~ Cheryl Leigh

Ok. I'm. Trying. To. Quit. Smoking. Again! Wish me luck on that stat! I'm slowly cutting them down. Hope this time I stick to it.

Not feeling too good.

Taking a much needed nap! *yawns*

"When you're married, It's good to have a equal balance of lust/love toward your partner. The warmth will keep it lasting, and the fire will keep it burning or should I say hot, hot, HOT!"

I need to get the show on the road.

"Fukken Fairies!" Loved that part.Pam's little saying from the last book is still in my head too.I just love Pam to "death".She is so cool or rather she "sucks"

Just finished reading the new SVM book "DR" and got to say my emotions about it are kind of blank.Sook and Eric need to get their blonde hair together by golly!

Fun. Fun.

Something to think about beforhand. Fat kids are hard to kidnap. Lol!

Thinking of going and getting some strong whiskey. That will nip the pain in the bud. Course hubby would have to seriously babysit me. (Not a drinker)...LOL!

I hate these pill popping addicts, they really have screwed things up. I don't think doctors ever give me enough to last as long as the pain does.

Been out of pain pills for two days now. Not healed and still hurts. It's not getting any better. God THIS SUCKS BIG TIME!!!!!!

Craziest thing said all year. "I've got tigers blood" lol. He really is a fruit loop. There, A reason to delete me.

Listening to Warbeast...I've wore out this album soooo very much. Still can't wait for their new one to come out!

Still feeling bad tonight.

Bad bad weather. Tried to get on internet, it's loading my email ok. But not loading facebook or myspace at all! Grrr!

Gone to bed. Don't feel to well.

The dark ages were very interesting indeed. Those people that say we have grown and evolved from that time, must not look around at the world that offend.

I need a amazon kindle bad. Hubby is going to kill me if books keep stacking up around the house. Lol.

Listening to Ron White. He's the only one that I really really like of the group and could listen to daily. So remember, "It's going to be a good day, tater"

Never was a t.v. person but that True Blood show has a very good grip on what I had called a life. Lmao.

It will always tickle me how cavys play tag. Nip, run around, nip, run around, nip, and so on. Lmao!

'Wonder who is in here.'

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I just love love

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Both of my Lovely Ladies.

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Playtime is funtime.

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:)

Old photo of Pippy...

Old photo of Pippy..., a photo by xCherylSmithx on Flickr.

But I loves it.

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Out of great madness comes great brilliance. Lol! :) :P

"Well it's true! It's true! You're semi-evil. You're quasi-evil. You're the margarine of evil. You're the Diet Coke of evil. Just one calorie, not evil enough."

"I don't speak freaky deaky Dutch!"

WILL THIS PAIN NEVER END!?!?! Sick of this! Get better all freaking ready! It's so annoying it's making my head hurt. Seriously!

I don't 'personally' believe that the Greek Gods existed...but I LOVE reading stories about them. They are very interesting to me. They are def much fun. :)

Do I believe in love at first sight? Yes. Do I believe you can have a true soulmate? Yes, but only one in your life and death.

Not attracted to meatheads either. I don't date men that have bigger breast than I have. Lol. :P

The only thing I can say is I must be real picky when it comes to men. I'm not attracted to emo guys, sorry, if I wanted a guy that girly, I would date a girl.

My chosen sis has a graduation coming up in May! Hurray! So proud of her. Hehe. Love and hugs all around. May 17th at 7pm to be exact. :)

Don't let people try to fool you. It never gets any easier when you lose someone you love. The only thing it gets is harder! Those people are just lying to you.

Found my dads old Great White albums. Decided to rip them to my ipod to help remember better days with him. I miss him more and more each day.

Feeling bad. Praying to get better real soon.

Not feeling good at all.

Time for me to become semi-brave for today.No texting me today please.Sorry sis, I'm going to be real busy and prob in a lot of pain later. <3 all of you. Hugs.

Not looking forward at all to the rest of this week.

One thing I'm looking forward to in the year (if it were possible): Sanity strikes Charlie Sheen.

Just got scared out of my freaking skin!!!! Holding Miss Fluffy and she jumped out of my arms (still getting her used to people). THANK GOD FOR REFLEXES!!!!!

Just got up about a hour ago and already spilled, dropped, and ran into things....today is going to be an off day. Eh!

Cleaning...Booyah! Sorry, just wanted to say booyah. BOOYAH! Lol.

Talking babish to a couple of guinea pigs while they look at you as if you are slow = priceless

Little Savannah is post to come to visit soon. Hope we have at least 1 sunny and warm day to enjoy the water and sun. She has been gone for far too long.

When life gives you a man like Matt...

When life gives you a man like Matt... a photo by xCherylSmithx on Flickr.

Put a ring on him. :)

Watching Beetlejuice the cartoon show with hubby. Hehe. :)

Nothing is more fun than a big kid in a adult body.

Serious coffee trip! My mind tells me no more, but I knew better. Geez! *shakes* At least I'm feeling better. Boxing soon maybe. :) Long time coming.

Been having internet problems again lately. And again it's only with my computers and not Matts. Starting to think its more of a AT&T problem though. Hate AT&T

I wish some people would grow up.I know I act childish sometimes...but dang! Gone to bed...Do not disturb.Sorry for not being on the internet..but bs is stupid.

Pippy's new baby sis.

Pippy's new baby sis.
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I present to you Miss Fluffy. Yes, I got it off South Park. :)

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